Relationships

Relationships are complicated, everyone knows that. But where do they begin? Do we fall for people because its destiny? Because we see in them what is not in us? Because we need the attention? Where does the feeling of "needing" a relationship begin? Everyone always wants to be loved but when does the love of our parents, family, and friends become not enough? And most of all after we are hurt so much why do we keep going back? To the person that hurt us or just to relationships in general? You would think after someone hurts you so bad that you can barely stand it you wouldn't go back, but many including myself have. The question is, are we stupid or in love or something else? I appreciate receiving attention but by flirting am I leading a guy on or am I innocent? Where is the line when the other person starts having feelings or when they start voicing them? Are relationships patterns? From my personal experience watching others in their relationships I've seen history repeat itself. But is it because we hold ourselves to different standards? Why should I demand to be treated well by being taken out to dinner being called often, then someone else I know buys everything the man she is seeing wants who does not even bother to come see her and when she went to a different city to see him, he did not show up. But this is not the first relationship where this person has been treated badly, it happens in every relationship she seems to have. Why do we put ourselves through this craziness is it because we are selfish or needy? And when we know in the back of our heads there is always a way out of any relationship even marriage is it a wonder that so many people get divorces?

Love

I often wonder if there is such a thing as true love. Don't get me wrong, I love love. I am a hopeless romantic in every sense of the word. But all the stories in which I love to indulge myself, in the end never seem possible. I constantly wonder am I ever going to find someone so willing to do anything for me or am I going to have to just settle? What if I decide I don't want to settle then I will just end up old and alone and no one wants that. Where do people come up with ideas of all these amazing love stories? A significant percent of the population, including myself, are obsessed with the series Twilight. Anyone who reads it will know why Robert Pattinson is now one of the most popular actors although he has not been in many motion pictures. We all want to feel as if we someone will try to change their nature to be with us even forever. I for one would love to feel so protected and so appreciated as Edward seems to be towards Bella, but the truth of the matter is, no two people are that selfless and if they are, most likely they will never find each other. It is said to think this a truth, but I cannot find any other excuse for my unhappiness. I try daily to not fantasize about "the perfect man" although I can hardly ever keep myself from doing so. I do accept the fact that I have very high standards when it comes to falling in love, but I never seem to keep myself to those standards when the actual event takes place. If you asked me what the perfect man is, I would tell you, someone who wants to know your secrets, who is as anxious to see you as you are him, and (this may seem shallow) but someone attractive, because if you are not attracted then there is no point of being in love. Although different people hold different accounts of what is attractive to them and I always try to acknowledge this. I do not deny I am human and I often find myself thinking "wow he's hot" or "hmm.. not so much" and I honestly feel guilty about it later. Love is such a complicated matter, I'm not sure I will ever know exactly what to think.